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A Reflection On Life | Relationships & Work (Every Relationship I Can Remember Ever)

I want to write whatever my writer brain wants to write, and this is what it wants to write about, since I’ve been dating and working so much lately. I thought it would be an interesting challenge to write down every romantic interest I’ve had throughout my life. I’m in the mood to complain. Though I’m certainly not perfect, neither is anyone else. There were good moments, but I will focus on the bad, because that’s what I want to…

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Forever Shape-shifting Puzzle Pieces | Relationships

I don’t even know where to begin. Girl wanted to stop talking because I said love you too soon despite hanging out many times; mainly said it because she had distance issues, and I even brought her favorite wine and candles over. Another who wants to make zero attempt at making it work or pulling her weight; I drove over an hour and a half for her and paid for a hotel. I met another for coffee and worked out…

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A Bad Moment, A Bad Day, Or A Bad Life, Or A Bad Perspective?

I’ve thought about my life way too much lately — the people I’ve met, the experiences I’ve had. Today has been an off day, and so was yesterday, so I’m more looking at the realist and pessimistic side than my usual optimistic side.   I’ve been tired of people, just a lot of people, and the world I’ve been brought to. I understand people and life are complex, but man it hasn’t been fun lately. I’ve worried about meeting the…

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A Secret of Happiness Is Doing Nothing…Sometimes

Today I woke up and had a bunch of random thoughts, feelings, and memories racing through my head; kind of like people usually get before sleep, but this time upon waking up and being tired enough to want to go back to sleep or to just lie in bed. I hear birds cawing outside — pretty annoying. I was wondering if all this pursuit to better things is making me miserable or if it’s only a temporary feeling. Like Einstein…

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Half Empty, Half Full | Empty, Full | Refill, Drink, Empty, Refill

I did notice that the past few posts here have been rather… morbid. Depressing. True. But sometimes, that’s how life is. Those were real moments in my life. Some of those things I didn’t know I felt. People experience those things and don’t have to write about them or choose to not write about them or don’t want to write about them. For me, it’s a natural thing to do. To write about it. I’ve had plenty of good moments…

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Truth

It’s one of those times you have to write — I have to write — because the emotions are overwhelming, and there is no choice. So many thoughts and emotions, where to start, and where to end? How does one even begin to untangle years and years of thoughts and — after I had wrote that, my computer froze. It rarely freezes. Unbelievable. Then I had to wait ten minutes to get back here to write more because I don’t…

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A Reflection on One’s Past Hard Work & Passion

Reflecting on life — I need to write another blogpost for therapy purposes; I need to tell of my ambitions, my hopes, my dreams, my desires, those old, present, and new. Like a lot of writers, I wrote a lot. It started in high school, hundreds of thousands of words on manuscripts, meant only for my eyes. I tried to get published, and I did receive some encouraging rejection letters from literary agents. When I wrote another book during my…

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Life Feels A Bit Empty (Love Sucks) | Feeling The Past and Letting It Go, and Now It Doesn’t

I just recently changed the theme from the website from New Gamer to Ascendant, and the website looks much nicer and cleaner. I used to really enjoy blogging, but right now, I feel like so many things are pointless. Recently, life has just felt… empty. Silent. Disconnected. Just there. I used to enjoy sharing my feelings. Now, I’m afraid that one blog post or one thing I do will define who I am. I’ve missed writing. Perhaps that is one…

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Sharing a Weird Dream

I had a weird dream. I was with a girlfriend or ex. It was nighttime and late. I had previously starred in a major motion picture romance movie as one of the major characters, and I was apparently unaware of how it affected my life and its importance. I was a celebrity, or close to it or was one before. Plenty of people knew who I was. I know all this because I said to my gf/ex, “I didn’t know…

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Life’s Infinite Loop: Life Can Be Exhausting, Especially When Stuck in an Infinite Loop; Wait Till It Ends?

Right now, it’s 3:14 A.M. I’m pretty exhausted from the work week and from doing graduate school work. I also still try to do hobbies. I guess I at least have a good reason to be tired and exhausted from having such a jam packed schedule. I wanted to start a website for my pillow idea, but I feel that I don’t have the time, especially the money even, because the utility bill is due and then so is rent…

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